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I'm so sorry to hear about your Borro. Fly high sweet cat friend.

My mum died 6 months ago and we adopted her 16 year old dog. We've spent the summer together knowing that she was not long for this world but she became an important part of our family and somewhere to pour our love and a living connection to mum.

Last week we had an amazing day at the beach to mark the 6 month anniversary. The next day we awoke to a terrible cry, our elderly dog had had a seizure and continued to have them intermittently through the day. After one when she went outside to the toilet I carried her limp body inside thinking she had died. She hadn't but I knew it was time. I made a vet appointment for the following day and told my siblings, one of my sisters was in denial.

She woke up unable to walk but as the morning went on she was fine, well as fine as a 16 year old dog can be. So I had to spend an agonising day sitting with my decision and my doubt. The denial sister accepted it was the day and thanked me for looking after her and giving her a home. How could I pull out and make everyone including myself ride this emotional roller-coaster again, tomorrow? Next week? A month from now? Was I a monster for considering my own feelings in weighing this decision and, to be frank, the not inconsiderable amount of individually minor but mounting inconveniences involved with owning and caring for a senior dog?

It was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. In the end I reasoned that it was a blessing that she had a good day as her final one compared to the awful scary one she'd had the day before. I knew in my heart that it was the right choice and ignored the pleading little girl inside me who begged for more time/someone else to take charge because she really just needs her mum to tell her she's doing a good job and made the right decision.

We showered her with love and I took her to the lake for a final sniff (she was blind and deaf) before the vet. Gosh it ripped every newly forming scab right open to be there with her. What an awful thing to bear witness to, but what a comfort knowing she felt loved and was calm and comfortable in the end. We all miss her so much 😔

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Thank you for sharing. We had to say goodbye to one of our ratty boys today, it was devastating. He got my partner through cancer, and now he's gone, and has left his brother alone.

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Hoo boy...I just bawled. A friend's dog died recently and she was overwhelmed with grief and thought it was "too much." I told her how our cat died last year and it hurt as much as, but in a different way, when my parents died. Pets are family members and my heart is with you all.

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Waaaaahhhh I’m blubbering like a baby 😭😿 A bit like people, some animals are old souls and they know and feel stuff and connect the fibres of the universe. They’re just special. You guys had a goodie. Kia kaha.😻

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We said goodbye to Birdie on Friday. She too had kidney failure. She was 18. I found her on the edge of a Christchurch golf course at 5am one cold morning. Looked up in the tree to see where she came from?! That and the golf course led to her name. So glad Eddie could say goodbye. The hardest part of Birdie leaving was that our son (27) could not be here to say goodbye because Birdie loved him best. Pets are awesome and give us way more than we can ever give them 💕

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Oh how special. I shed some tears. Wasn’t expecting to ugly cry tonight but here we are. The loss of a pet can be unbearable. I feel you!

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awww I think I have some pollen in my eyes. So sorry Borro has passed but so beautiful that Eddie was there for his friend, what a loving, strong loyal little man, Eddie is.

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I’m sorry to hear about Borro. Arohanui to you all. Love is always good, even when it makes you sad.

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Arohanui Emily, Eddie an whānau. We lost our gorgeous black 🖤 girl Luna Batcat just on Sunday, she was in an accident. So we are heartbroken as you are. Dancing in the stars tonight. Xxx your words touched my sobbing heart.

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💔 We had to put our cat down just over a year ago. Our then 5yo was devastated. I'd owned Jellybean since before I met my husband, he (the cat) was around 9 when our eldest was born. When E came home from the hospital he had a sniff and decided he was family. Jellybean was never too far away when the kids were doing something. As he neared the end of his life, he slept more and more on E's bed. It was hard to tell him that I didn't know if Jellybean was coming home from the vets. We were still in lockdown, and trips to the vet meant the cat was taken inside in their carry cages, while the owners stayed in the car and spoke to the vet over a phone call. I'm forever grateful that our vet let me go inside to say goodbye, but I feel sad for our children who didn't get to do the same.

E also wrote a couple of messages to Jellybean in the following days. Having already dealt with human loss (my grandparents) he already knew what death was. I'm super grateful that E already had cat soft toys, and was able to find some comfort in them.

E and A (now 6 and 4 respectively) still talk about Jellybean and how they miss him. We also adopted 2 new cats, that they both adore.

Arohanui e hoa

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Aww Emily, I have shed a tear for you all this morning as I read your story. It is so heartbreaking losing a member of the whanau. Our fur babies are usually our first babies and watching them grow with our own babies is such a beautiful journey. Hold on to those wonderful memories and stories, and big hugs to you all. x

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I needed to read this today. Thank you for sharing him with us. I'm so sorry for your loss, and so grateful for his life with you.

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Beautiful tribute 😭

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Oh my goodness, animals are such a gift. I'm so sorry that Borro had to leave but so grateful that Eddie has such wonderful memories of his buddy. He will remember him forever. Sleep well beautiful boy ❤️🐈

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So beautiful. I'm bawling my eyes out. A very beautiful little life xxx arohamai

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Oh my heart this was us 6 months ago. Arohanui Eddie, what a bond to treasure x

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